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I Miss You 😘 but......





I heard the sound of his voice calling out my name(Fauz baby!!), his voice is so clear, but it’s all in my head. The mind has an amazing trove of memories . Suddenly, some of his jokes and the silly faces he used to pull were all dancing like Jason Derulo in my head (fine-sexy coordinated movements). I was tempted to call him and say “I miss you” but thankfully, my  pride wouldn’t let me. 

I jump to Telegram, viewed his display picture. He still had that dashing smile, looking as fiiinne as always (what did I expect?). I wasn’t angry anymore (time heals), I scrolled through our messages. I almost texted “hey big head”. I had missed his witty, funny and goofy personality but I wasn’t going to text him. No I am not. I did not.  


I know he did what he did. He didn’t deny it neither did he confirm it. His attitude annoyed me. I interpreted it as “Get over yourself, you’re not supposed to be angry if we’re in a situationship”  we can replace it with entanglement 😂.  Screw whatever *ship!(I have emotions) I cussed him. Now, we don’t speak. 


I picked a book (Donna Tartt’s Secret History) to take my mind off him. 

Twenty minutes into my book, Amavi sent a message “ Le boo(his nickname) called. I ignored the message. She called after a while “Didn’t you read the message?” She queried.  I didn’t want her to know I was missing him so I brushed it off. I wanted to find out if he asked about me but I was keeping up appearances. As soon as I got off the phone with her, another friend had put him up on her status(your nemesis knows how to get into your head). I sent a sarcastic smiling emoji to her and she replied “I thought of you  when I was putting him up”. If only she knew.........


Everything had conspired against me to make it impossible for me to forget him.  ‘Corona feelings’ are so weird, you will be minding your business (drinking your sobolo and perfecting your Savage love dance  moves) and a wave of emotions you can’t deal with after the pandemic will come at you. I didn’t fall this time but I don’t know how long I can keep being strong for me. 


I miss him but whatever. 


Corona Feelings by Fauz baby!!!

Comments

  1. Flame20 July 2020 at 11:54

    If only Le Boo could be a fly on this wall��

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  2. Bogusgirl20 July 2020 at 12:41

    I'm on this table la

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  3. Esallyn20 July 2020 at 14:27

    Hahahahaha aren’t we all in the table?

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  4. Esallyn20 July 2020 at 14:27

    Hahahahaha aren’t we all in the table?

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  5. Shadow Recruit20 July 2020 at 16:42

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